Thanksgiving Sucks

Im just gonna go on a little rampage right now cause I think I need to.


Thanksgiving is just another reminder of how fucked up my family is.

I live with my dad and we get along great usually. But hes gone all the fucking time,so i was sitting here all alone on thanksgiving,the day your supposed to be with your families.
Then my mom,I love her to death,but I just cant stand going over there. She has MS and gets sick a lot and she cant get a job so she only gets money from the governent,so everytime i go over there we just sit and watch tv and I cant fuckin stand it. Then my crazy (Literaly) sister is always around and shes so fucking selfish and annoying I really just want her to attempt suicide for the 3rd time and succedde.
My brother i love to death,hes the coolest and most kick ass brother I could ask for. and he always stops by to see me when he can,but hes too busy at college.So yeah I spent the morning sleeping til about 9,got up ate breakfast,talked to my dad for 5 seconds,then he left.

I also find out that my best friends have been doing a lot of hanging out and shit,while Im at home doing the same shit day after day,without even mentioning it to me. Like me and my best friend used to hang out at my house every other weekend last year,and now she hasnt been over since around April.

A couple weeks ago I would say things were going awesome. I got a puppy,my best frined moved to school,blink started talking again,etc... But now I realize while all that small nice shit was happening Im losing more and more of the bigger stuff that mean a lot more to me.I know Ive changed A LOT. Too much stuff about me has changed,my appearence,the way I go about school,some of the people I hang out with (better people than I have). I still talk to my friends every day at school before and after,and I still act the same around them,but its just like Ive missed out so much on them and sometimes dont even know what their talking about.

I dont really know..Im kinda confused,pissed,and a lil depressed all at once. It all just hit me the last couple days

awe! *hugs* wow that all seemed a little fucked up and harsh, but i get that you needed to vent.
that last paragraph sounded like the same shit im going through. it defiantly sucks big time.
i hope you feel better soon!
~happy holidays you bastard eh? haha

dude
that really sucks
i mean i'm sorry
but everything usually
thins out and everything
happens to be ok
but shit thats really
brutal but you're an
extremely cool and besides you made up this fucking
AMAZING site with a bunch of hella cool people
and i know we're just enternet friends but you seem really cool
andi hope evrything turns out not just alright but like awesome
hahahaha

basically all that jibberish up there means ^^^^
you're the shiiit.

Dang. I thought mine sucked just because it was boring, but I'm sorry about all of that.

yeah i dunno really....

I dont wanna say my life sucks cause it doenst at all

just both sides of my familys really fuckd up

a bit off topic but what is thanksgiving?

thanksgiving is like a traditonal holiday
that americans celebrate because it's the honering
of the pilgrims and the indians getting along
in like ancient history or something like that. and to celebrate, all the americans who
believe that eat like a feast and gain like alot of pounds and share what they're gratful for
hahahahaha
but really it's just an excuse for evryone to be fat asses and they're weight in turkey

This girl I know celebrated Thanksgiving this year because she tries really hard to be American even though she's English haha. I don't think she even knows what its about.

That's kind of odd.

Just her or her whole family?

Her whole family, I think. Her mum made Thanksgiving dinner and everything haha.

aw im so sorry that you had such a horrible thanksgiving, but don't kill yourself, thats ridiculous, I mean nobody wants to live in this fucked up world anyway but YOU might be the person to change it, you know. Well my thanksgiving was pretty good it was just me and my mom and we went over to spend it with all of her hippie friends that didn't have any modern electronics what so ever and my cell phone didn't have any signal and it was cold, so I was pretty bored, but the food was good :]

theres no way im freakin kilin myself
suicides the most selfish and stupid thing in the world

everyone in my family has tried commiting suiced
my mom,sister,aunt and my best friend too
they say it runs in my family
so now their thiking i may be bipolar


idk i think im good now
but the other day i was wantin to shoot some ppl in the head

I always want to kill people. I have like a bloody mental hitlist in my head. I am perfectly sane though haha. People just get on my nerves a lot.

hell yeah to that!
hahaha i totally know the whole hitlist thing
and if i end up with a annoying or jusy shitty teacher
i'm always like "people like you are the reasons that make me want to bring a gun to school"
hahaha
they never think it's funny.